In Memory of you

I have decided to move my blog and keep it more updated! *fingers crossed*

You can catch me @

theburnttoast.wordpress.com

Countdown to day of departure.. Leaving all these behind and awaiting what the future might bring. Cheers MATE!

YAY!

Refreshed! =)
Praise the Lord for He is good! I wanna thank the Lord for helping me in my student visa application. So many obstacles I faced through this ordeal of awaiting my reply from the uni, awaiting reply from the aussie embassy as well as the application of my visa.

Thank the Lord for the comfort He has sent through His word as well as the Godly counsel from ministers, loved ones and friends! Trully when the Lord opens door, we cant close them. Thank the Lord for Rev Stone and for his family's kind hospitality. Thank the Lord for HE is good. =)

Ok time to stop procrastinating and read my journals! And i believe my proposal is in HOT SOUP! ARGH! *Disappears*

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You broke my heart by not telling people the truth. By not standing up for us when you had the chance to and not having the air cleared and now people think they know the REAL story and they assume the problem lies with me when it actually lies with "E D". Well so be it. *shrugs*

Is this how strong your love is toward me? The love that we fought so hard for and put in so so so much effort and time to build despite knowing it was hard for me to make a commitment again to anyone? It was hard for me to commit, but i did it for you. Cuz i wanted you to be happy. And thats what matters issit it?..

THIS makes me really upset, to think that you could only love me when times were good and our journey was smooth sailing. But now that theres a big storm and waves get choppy and every second of unrest seems like eternity, with not a ray of hope in sight, you decided to jump ship and let me drift all alone to brave it myself. Well perhaps, that to you is love. If its so, then thank you.

=”’( *Turns away*

Oh Lord. Help me.

Oh Lord. I have sinned. Teach me oh Lord and show me what my earthly eyes cannot see. Show me Lord where I have erred. That I might learn much humility thru all these that you have put before me Lord. Mould me and shape me that I may be of use in your service, being an instrument for thy glory and for thy name sake Lord. Forgive me for im a wretched sinner. Forgive me for I have faultered along the way. And Lord, if there be any wicked way in me, cleanse me and purge me of all my unrighteousness Lord.

I come to thee on bended knee, asking you to even have mercy on me. That i will decrease while you increase Lord. And thank you for the many trials and testings that you have put in my way, that I may learn much from thy word Lord. That my life may be a living testimony for thee Lord.

Break me Lord. Mould me Lord. Use me Lord. I submit my all to thee. All praise and glory to thy name.

And Lord, thank you for blessing me with my honours year. May your name be praised!

My prayer.

Lord i pray that you would grant me much wisdom and understanding, and be gracious to me oh Lord. For i know i have sinned against thee and i ask thee to forgive me of all my sins. May you even grant me much peace that passeth all understanding, that i might be able to see your hand in all these.

I thank you for all the trials and testings that thou has sent my way. I thank you for even giving me such time of sweet fellowship with thee, that i may draw close to you and to love you more with each and every day that passes. Oh Lord, may you even grant me much wisdom and faith to trust in they loving care. To know that if you will Lord, thou will grant me a way. And grant us a way.

I trust in the path that you have laid for me. I know that you have whatever you have planned for me is the best for me and i continue to cling unto thy promises oh Lord. That through all these trials I may be moulded according to your will and that i may be used for the glorification of thy kingdom. Lord i Trust in your care and promises.

I pray oh Lord that thou grant me the desires of my heart and if you will oh Lord, may you even materialize my thoughts only if it can glorify thy name oh Lord. Lord i ask you to comfort me and to be close to me. And may i learn to rejoice for you know my heart Lord. And this Lord, i lay at thy feet. Help me oh Lord. Help me.

John 8

"[1] Jesus went unto the mount of Olives.[2] And early in the morning he came again into the temple, and all the people came unto him; and he sat down, and taught them.[3] And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her in the midst,[4] They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act.[5] Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou?[6] This they said, tempting him, that they might have to accuse him. But Jesus stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground, as though he heard them not.[7] So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.[8] And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground.[9] And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst.[10] When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee?[11] She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more." John 8:1-11

May we be constantly reminded that we are nothing but sinners, condemned and cursed into the Lake of EternalFire. But our Lord has been merciful to each and everyone of us. And despite our sinful nature, HE so lovingly has sent his son down to die for out sins. So may we continue to strive to be our best for him and not be man pleasers but only with the focus on pleasing our heavenly father, regardless of what man may say. To God be the glory in all that we do for him.

A True Warrior, Thats what I am.

Oh Lord, Forgive me. Teach me Lord humility..